No video blog

Sorry guys, as the title says, no video blog today. Things have gotten complicated here. Let's see if I can fill you in.

In my last video blog you saw me after an interview to work in a warehouse. That was an interesting week. The second day of me working there (Wednesday) I got hurt. The roof was being redone, and all that we were told was that some dust may come down from the ceiling. We started to work on moving merchandise out of the way of the falling dust. Without warning hot tar was coming down. Some landed on my right hand, my shirt and my pants.

I wasn't seriously hurt, but enough to negotiate a $100 compensation to replace my clothes. Because of my current legal status I did not want to risk going to court or taking legal action. I signed a waver after getting the money the following Monday from the roofing company.

Before that I found out Friday that the company doesn't pay straight cash, which meant I would have to be on the books and I can't do that right now. The owner understood and paid me in cash and put me down as a temp. He did mention that during November and December they hire seasonal staff and do pay in cash and that he would be happy to see me again.

I'm a good worker, but right now I need straight cash.

Ray hooked me and Duane up this past Monday with an inventory job with his company. Duane got the hang of it quick. Maritza seems to be coming down with a cold and I was concerned for her, I got her some medicine (Nyquil).

Monday night Duane and Ray had a misunderstanding which I helped resolve, and I saw signs of drinking. I talked to him about it Wednesday afternoon and he agreed he needed to slow down.

I'm not working right now, but I've been managing to hustle a bit with the stuff I got dumpster diving which I put up on craigslist.

I planned ahead and bought food which can last me for weeks to save on having to eat out. I won't go hungry that's for sure and with Martiza cooking every few days that should balance things out.

Every bit of cash I manage to earn goes into my bank account and I'm paid up with rent until August 20th. Two months should be enough to find a stable job I hope. I've done what I can for Maritza and Ray financially, I've reached my limit. I can now only give moral support.

I can only hope that Duane stays sober, his anger issues seem to be more of a problem as times goes on. He has a grudge against the world, from gas prices to jewish people. His view of his surroundings are not clear I think. You can't take things personal and be furious at every thing which you have no control over, specially other people and their choices. I'm trying to help him, but I don't know if it makes a difference at this point.

I've been feeling a bit down in the past 2 weeks, wondering what future I could have if I can't resolve my legal problems. I want to find a good woman to love, have children, a family... a future. How can I make it happen if I can't work on the books, pay my taxes, get a driver's license or even get on an airplane to go anywhere?

I'm not giving up, but it's tough emotionally right now. I can't tell Maritza or Ray about it, I don't know them well enough right now. Duane knows the situation but right now I'm the one helping him, he's in no position to help me and he already gets mad about it when I do rarely mention it.

I've been playing Travian to occupy my mind, and posted once again in my other blog to let my emotions out, it helps a lot to share that part of me.

There are so many aspects of me. The sci-fi/fantasy geek, the computer nerd a.k.a gamer, the romantic, the movie and music lover, the quiet reader, the nature lover, the cook (I'm no chef, but with a good recipe and the right ingredients I'm good to go!), the pacifist, the blogger (heh), the organizer, the translator (even though my Spanish is rusty), the cat & dog lover (I miss my cat still), and so much more. There are days when I realize "oh yeah, I like that too!" and remember a part of me which has been dormant.

I try to enjoy every day, looking at the sky on clear days whenever I can. But still, inside I'm not always alright. I'm 38 and I got no family to call my own. Time stops for no man.

I don't mind being alone, but to remain in such a state is not what I want. Oh well, tomorrow is another day.

May as well do a movie review since i saw it tonight.

Benny & Joon is a 1993 comedy/romance/drama with one of my favorite actors, Johnny Depp. A brother and his mentally ill sister (Benny and Joon) live together in a small town. While struggling to decide if to send her away on her doctor's recommendation the brother's love life sparkles. During a poker night with the guys the sister loses a hand and they end up stuck with Sam (Depp) who awakens new feelings in Joon. I'll say no more. I recommend this movie.

That's all for today.

Another Video Blog

Sorry guys, forgot that I had left this post as a draft and didn't post it!

Ok, here is the movie review I promised.

Fanaa is a 2006 Indian movie with Hindi subtitles. The movie will draw you in, and as any typical Indian movie singing and dancing are involved of course. If you've seen Indian movies before and like them then this one will be a gem of a film for you. Good acting, a great (an unexpected) story of love, loss, deceit and murder!

Zooni, a young blind girl visits Delhi as part of a national holiday and meets a tour guide who is a known Casanova. His flirtations charms her and she falls in love with him. What she doesn't know is that Rehan lives a secret and dangerous life. A terrorist bomb kills Rehan, which leads Zooni to a life of mourning and guilt. This movie, is a must watch for anyone who likes international films.