Changes which came too late, and movies

It's almost a week since my last post and I have much to tell.

Yesterday for the first time in a long time I cooked, and enjoyed it greatly. Cleaning and cutting the chicken, frying it, making the rice, french style green beans...a simple yet enjoyable meal. I missed cooking. I had agreed to cook every wed, so I will be cooking a few more weeks before I go.

Nina has been trying to change, but it's just too late in my eyes. She still has a bad attitude at random times, her true personality comes out in between sometimes. It's not easy to change, and I got to admit if she had treated me for the past 2 years the way she treats me now, I probably wouldn't leave.

Today I went with her to the doctor, and even though her platelettes dropped a bit (152k) the doc said there was no concern. Of course she overreacted and started to cry. The doc is used to this, he kept repeating several times things were fine and that if they dropped under 80-70k then he would take action and that meanwhile things were fine.

The day I tried to leave I told her everything that bothered me, including the fact that a husband should go to the doc with her wife, that is why I went. There is another doc appointment in 2 weeks, for a different specialist.

I will go to every appointment until I leave, otherwise she probably suspect me.

She has stopped screaming at the kids, and I hope she at least is able to keep that up when I'm gone.

I haven't been able to get in touch with a lotro friend who is ill, but I've decided to not seek her out too much, it's very possible she wants to be left alone.

Since I've pretty much set up both my guardian (Obelix) and captain (Windkeeper) I'm playing my lowbie champ (Windguaerd) for fun. I've been trying to immerse myself into lotro...but it's become harder as times goes on.

I haven't been too social outside my kin. I should talk to my friend Liz this week, I hope she is ok.

This may sound silly...but today when Jason was driving us to the doctor's office, I saw the blue sky...it was a clear and beautiful day...since I rarely go out of the house this was a treat for me.

I've been reading the Dao De Jing book, and the eastern philosophy has helped me a great deal to find peace within myself. I'm on chapter 73 out of 81. I will probably re-read it often on the road to be able to comprehend it better, it's the kind of book which you need to look at a few times to really grasp it.

I've been spending some times watching movies. Here is what I saw: The Painted Veil, Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow, Harakiri - 1962 [japanese - Subtitled], This Is England, Ong-bak [Thai - English Subtitled], School For Scoundrels [Unrated Edition], Casshern [Japanese - Subtitled], Japanese Story, Knocked Up [Unrated Edition], Bridge to Terabithia, Marie-Antoinette, Tsotsi - Subtitled.

The one which touched me recently was Tsotsi, a foreign film about an african thief who steals a car with a baby in it which changes his life. Before that was The Painted Veil which was a beautiful story.

Damn this post is long, but I guess I had to catch up. Time to check Anarchy Online's new vehicles, which look sweet. Too bad I won't be playing AO regularly until next year if that.

Oh well, until the next post.