Yesterday Nina (my wife) was talking to her brother on the phone and she exploded. Apparently she thought he said "fuck you bitch" to her; I know him long enough to know he wouldn't say that, knowing how she would react. How did she respond?
She exploded, screaming at the top of her lungs, in front of the kids and god...saying awful things which neither my nephew or niece should've heard. That was one of the worst fights in the family I've seen...and that wasn't all. She then picks a fight with her sister (she was home) and starts screaming at her.
I go and try to calm her down...and I get screamed at! (not as bad as Jason got screamed at)
Sindy (my sister-in-law) took the kids to their bedrooms, but considering that they could still easily hear Nina's screams...
It's stuff like this that I'm sick and tired of, people have to walk on eggshells with her because anything sets her off, big time.
This fight lasted hours, then the silent treatment was given to Sindy and Jason got it in person when he got home, poor guy.
Yesterday I thought..if she screams at me like she did with Jason...I would pack my stuff and leave that day...
I'm trying to change, get fit, lose weight, find some spiritual meaning in my life, so that I can do what I need to do in the future.
If there is one thing that I did not grow up with, was screaming people in my family. Sure there were arguements, but screams were very rare. I've had to get used to this enviroment...but I keep asking myself how long until I can't take it anymore.
Between the arguments and screams that are almost a daily routine...the insults I get...her threats...It really makes me feel that I don't belong here, even thought I love the kids dearly, and my cat Rosie...I'm hoping today is a better day.
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