Concerned

I know I haven't written my blog as frequent as before. I've been concerned with the cash I need to travel, well the lack of it to be exactly. 5 ebay auctions, 3 sold for minimum bids. I walked to the post office with 3 heavy boxes to ship the stuff I sold, usually it's a 30 minute walk, but because of the weight it took me twice that long to get there. The walk back felt good however.

I don't have much stuff, I gave away some of it to Sindy and Jason in the past few months because I felt they could use it.

Nina hasn't auctioned my books yet, she told me a couple of times to help her post them on ebay...I pretty much said that if she wanted to raise her feedback by selling them, she should at least put the time and effort to put them up herself since the books weren't even hers to begin with.

Every day I'm more convinced that my decision to leave is the right thing to do. Even if I only leave with $100 I'm ready to rough it out, even do the dreaded dumpster dive for food if I run out of money.

Yeah, sounds disgusting however after some research (goggle ftw) I find that someone can survive on the street by dumpster diving for food, clothes and even furniture!

I think I'm smart enough to do it in a safe way if I really needed to.

I'm trying to not think about the money, and focus on a path of travel towards Alberta, Canada. It seems that if I go straight north I will have a pretty good chance to reach.

I've been feeling a bit down, knowing I will leave the kids and my cat...but I'm so set on leaving that it no longer affects my decision.

I've got moral support from some gaming friends online, which does help me emotionally to be honest. However I try not to bring it up too often, I don't like to worry people.

I will write more about my past by the weekend I think.